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London Kings Cross Station

This is the first picture I took when I got my first Samsung gadget. Looking at this, it takes me back to 2 years ago, which is when I graduated, which is also when I started my pre-reg. Looking back reminds me of who I am and what I am.

Since I have the time now, I will bring myself back in time to mark the moments that is worth recalling.

Refreshed and Recharged

I have been away for 5 week. FIVE FREAKIN WEEKS! SO AMAZING!! I have been back home, spent times with family and friends. I missed the feeling of belonging, in charge, and fulfilling. That is what u can get from home WITH your love ones.

Now I am back working as a fully qualified optometrists. It feels a bit different when I come back this time. I miss people here, I can blend in more. I know I am a bit late, I just learnt whatever happened in life, you are in control.

 

“Life is 10% what happens to us,

90% how we react to it.’ – Dennis P. Kimbro

So, whatever we want, we have to make that change. Its just like when you are feeling shitty in the start of your day, and you don’t wanna talk to anyone…. that is when you have got to just smile and forget, make a change. 🙂

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RxTSoiqXg0&list=FLuQ0-J9KXCzDFgBfT8SzCyQ

P/s. we are adults, nothing we can’t do.

you love me, I know you still do.

Eunice xx

What TIME does to us

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I used to be so bubbly, cheerful, love to be surrounded by people.

Now, I feel uncomfortable around people who I think they know me. I think a lot before I splurge out words. Creating awkward situation.

I used to have big dreams, thinking I will go on stage one day and be that DREAM GIRL. I though i can dance well too 😛

Now, that dream is fading away. I almost don’t believe I can sing. I can feel my joints are stiff when I move my body. (sign of ageing maybe?)

I used to have a few lovely good old girlfriends. We click like nobody can do,to a point that people think we are Lesbians. We are so high and happy together, we can just stand on a table and dance with everyone watching us. We enjoyed it.

Now, even talking face to face, it just feels like we are so far away. Its just like the network connections are so bad, you tried to talk and u get tired after the end of conversation.

I used to get so stress with my studies, and I hate discussing with my mates because I am not confident.

Now, I am confident to talk about the basics and my life is stress free =)

You should fall in love with someone who inspire you

I am a person with deep thought but unable to word it out. Thank you Samantha for helping me expressing my thoughts. This means a lot to me ❤

right here waiting

There’s one thing that I find myself not achieving when it comes to dating: inspiration.

I don’t really care how you spend your time. I mean I hope you have hobbies, and it’d be cool if we have some in common, but as long as you spend your time doing things you enjoy, that’s cool with me. I don’t really care about your education. Do I hope you have one? Absolutely, that’s important to me. But I understand that it isn’t for everyone. Do I care about your job? Nah. But please, please, have a job that you enjoy doing. That’s all.

I really should reiterate. Because I DO care. I care about each and every aspect of you, even the ones I don’t always want to care about or the aspects you wish I wouldn’t care about. I care to know you — and knowing you involves all of those finite details previously mentioned. What I’m saying is that you’ll deviate from what I always envisioned. You won’t have every characteristic I always thought that I wanted in a man. And that’s okay. But there’s one thing I need from you — one thing I really, truly value: I need you to inspire me.

Inspiration in its simplest form, really. I want you to inspire me to be a better person. To push myself — in my career, in my education, in my beliefs, culture, and values. I want you to inspire me to try things I always said I wouldn’t. To read books I never thought I’d like, to go to a place I never wanted to visit, to eat a food I always swore off. I want you to inspire me to be better. Every day. Because although self-motivation is important, sometimes our steam just runs out. Sometimes we need a person running alongside us, telling us we can keep going, that we can cross that finish line.

And I want to inspire you, too. I want to be able to push you. To stretch your limits and make you step outside of your comfort zone. Because inspiration is like a weed when you have the right amount. It grows wildly and quickly, and spreads throughout the surface. When it works, when it really works, we feed off of each other. We make each other better. We consistently try new things and pursue higher heights.

And that’s what I hope for. Maybe it’s a bit far-reaching but maybe it really isn’t at all.

Is that not the epitome of every healthy relationship? It’s a loose term: inspiration (and it’s largely open to interpretation). But think about it. Think of some important traits when you envision the perfect relationship: couples who love each other, who try new things together, who make time for each other, who put each other first, who listen to each other, who push each other. And now think about inspiration. What does inspiration make you do? Does it make you care? Love? Push harder and further? Depending on the situation, it certainly does.

Inspiration makes us better. Inspiration makes us want to do something. It moves our emotions, our intellect, our behavior. And is that not what every relationship needs? We need to be influenced to feel happiness and love, influenced to deeply care for someone other than ourselves, influenced to better ourselves while we better those around us. Quite frankly, that sounds pretty healthy to me.

So that’s all I want. And it encompasses so very, very, much, that one little word. Inspiration. 11 letters, 4 syllables, and a different meaning for every person walking this earth. But there’s someone out there — maybe you’ve already found them or maybe you’re still looking — but there’s someone walking around with a bottle of inspiration ready to swirl and mix with your own. To create that perfect recipe that leaves us with a sweet taste in our mouth and a warm feeling in our heart.

Fill your jar. Screw that lid on tight. And unleash that beauty when you’re good and ready.

I am in my mid twenties now. At this age, you will be surrounded by friends who are happily engaged, married and live happily ever after.  I have noticed people who are healthily engaged are so happy inside out, they shine, they laugh, they make you feel good. Because they are loved, they feel loved and they are spreading love in the air even their other half are not with them. I really wanna feel good being myself and be my genuine self whenever I go. I am not at that state now. I feel very uncomfortable being around people, I feel safer in my own big white room. I cannot imagine myself saying YES, I DO! I really am looking forward to that day.

Be inspired. Inspire others.

Eunice xoxo

Ok you guessed it right, But now I’m found :D

Hello people, as we all know life is difficult; it has its ups and downs. We experience successes and failures, good luck and bad. Life isn’t always pleasant, nor is it easy. So after my last post in Sept 2012 I didn’t post anything until now, so quite obviously I didn’t make it. But after 4 difficult months, I passed!!! There goes my shoutout:

FB status and blessings from friends

FB status and blessings from friends

Within these 4 months, I have gone through stresses and decisions – ups and downs. I have resigned from my old work place. All I remember was I left with a really bad skin condition, with pimples on my cheeks, leaving me scars on my beautiful face. I don’t usually have pimples even during times. So it was actually that horrible, experiencing the stress working with people that take advantages and not giving you what you deserve.

So the story goes like this…. After I got my devastating result that I Failed my OSCE, I was left a week time to decide weather to move out and start a new rent just to work in the same practise, prepare and pass my OSCE then I will go home after I pass. And of course I did try to apply some more jobs through the internet. This guy Chris from prospect healthy was really helping me, because it was not easy to find a job with Tier 2 sponsorship. He found 2 posts for me, one in London and one in Teignmouth, Devon. The London rejected me because I didn’t pass. shit. The Devon director Simon was very kind. He sponsored me to travel all the way to Teignmouth, arranged the girls to bring me out after the interview and I stayed over one night. This is the moment that is worth recalling.

Simon picked me up from Newton Abbot train station. He brought me to this pub with lovely scenery of Teignmouth, with all the lovely houses across the river and up on the hill. very lovely indeed. I still remembered I ordered the last plate of hoisin duck salad and a glass of tap water. The salad was very refreshing and easy to eat while you talk and the glass of water does not has any funny taste like all the tap/filtered water I have tasted in the UK. It tasted just like water from mineral water bottle. And I swear I wasn’t charge for that ‘mineral water taste’ tap water. We talked about Specsavers Teignmouth, how much I know about them. Luckily I did some research. Specsavers Teignmouth did the world record 33 hours nonstop eye test for charity. I asked questions about their business and patients. SO I think I did impress him. Then we move on to the store, we talked about my issue in my last workplace. He thought that was very naughty of them taking advantages of me and it was against the law. So he actually called the person in charge in the Specsavers head office. They were trying to get me out of there and make things right.

That night I went out with the girls: Jess, Abi and Amanda. They are funny and friendly. We had 2 glasses of champagne before we head out for an Italian dinner. Now I understand, pre-drink is not about getting drunk, it is about being more sociable. Yeah really, now then I know. I use to drink to get high and dance. LOL! Yeah I really enjoyed myself, because it was my first time hanging out with all AngMos. A bit nervous because, you know…never hang out with them la, nothing much lol.

So after long and painful considerations, I decided to go for it. This is gonna be a 2 years contract. I will be 27 after this. Hopefully I will practise to be a new me after this 2 years. I have expected not to be able to travel down to London as often because Teignmouth is far. I will be lonely living alone and this is my MAIN concern. The thing I missed the most is Sarah de Lewandowicz. The most amazing housemate ever. She is what is missing in Teignmouth. Loneliness is my problem now. But I still choose to come. I can not complain but to make full use of my time here, let it be getting a new body, be good in guitar, practise positivity in loneliness is the BOM man. I will be a nun by the time I graduate. That’s my aim. LOL this sounds hilarious.

I moved down on to Teignmouth on the 19th November 2013, stayed at Jess’s. Started work on the 25th Nov, moved into my new crib just after 10 days I arrived in Teignmouth. I have to say this although this is not relevant: I started work 23th July 2012 in Worthing Specsavers. Then flew off to Lisbon with Jean on the 9-12th December, off on the 8th and 13th as well. Christmas dinner was on the 13th December. Dad accompanied back to Teignmouth after I touched down London from Lisbon. Went Newton Abbot and around town on the 15th and to Exeter on the 16th. Daddy went back on the 17th December. I was given christmas holiday as well without requesting for it. My festive holiday starts on the 21st to the 2nd of Jan 2013. What a month init? Ideal working life to me.

After I got back from me holidays, 16th Jan is my OSCE in Manchester. Those are the days with no life, no internet, just work and study. 30th is when I know I passed! Thank god! Again, those sleepiness nights, was properly killing you form the inside. 31st is first day of CNY, celebrated with my lovely colleagues. We decorated our store with traditional decorations I got from Manchester. How NICE ! 🙂

For some reason, the happiness of passing didn’t last long. As it was CNY, and is still CNY now. I wanna be back home celebrating being a qualified Optom and CNY together with my family. But though luck, I can’t go home because my documents for visa are not complete yet. I need to wait. So i waited, looking at Facebook pictures. This is life. I am being so negative nowadays. Not good.

This is my update so far. 🙂 I believe, I have faith that one day will come.

xoxo you know you love me

Eunice xx

Life as a Pre-reg optometrist

To Eunice,

The day I first started working is on the 23th July 2012. I still remember the day like it was just yesterday. It was 3 days after my graduation. In 4 days time the College of Optometrist will announce the result of my OSCE. Qualify or not? (Will get back to u soon)

This is the first time in my life that I don’t know what am I going to do in the next 4 days. If I pass, I will be jobless, need to start job hunting, start packing, be prepared to go home, traveling, ended up in Manchester taking care of bro, start applying for le Cordon Bleu cooking school, be more serious in singing, plan to be an air hostess….. The list goes on and I still dunno what I am going to do. If I fail, I need to still pack and move out, find a temporary place to stay while waiting for my next OSCE in January 2014, employed but get crap salary with no bonus, emo for 3 months while directors will be proper happy and yea…. Life goes on no matter what.

There’s part of me wanting to stay working at my current work place is the people who I work with, I hate here is because of the people who I work for. Worthing is such a beautiful place to stay, u get nice view, reasonable rent, nice people and nice food! Man I will miss here. I can’t wait to leave here is because I wanna go further, I need upgrading. I dislike my life, I need to change the way I live my life. I need to do more things to help me boost my confident. But still first thing first is wanna pass.

This year is full of emotional. I get really tough time at work, met a lot of different people, I learn so much from them. Where shall I start, my English speaking is better because no one speak mandarin with me here. I just realized I like to play with accent ; ) At work, I have to be extremely understanding as I see 15-18 patient a day, working 5 days a week having only 28 days holiday. You can do the math in how many patients I see a year. You need to engage with everyone within 5 mins to make people feel comfortable so that you can create a rapport communication and get the most informative information and try to sell without showing them u are actually selling (that’s the hardest bit!) and doing all this plus answering all questions within 25mins. I am glad I can do this after a year of training. I still remember when I first started testing, 4 patients a day makes me feel so tiring and proud and I feel like I deserve a good pat on the back by all my colleagues! Lol. It is also very rewarding when you get someone you don’t know wants to see you or they come back for you or they leave good comments online about you. Or write a letter to my director and asking them to keep me in UK or receiving a letter about the meaning or my name : ) Also, receiving gifts when u hit targets keep you motivated too! Even if its just chocolates that make you fat!

I have been very focus when I am studying for all the visits and made sure I am not wasting my time studying things that doesn’t really help, especially when exam is just around the corner. I have written all my notes for all the classic scenarios, things I don’t use to know and I keep them nicely so I can re-refer them when I need them. Did most of the CET and MCQ which is relevant, discuss with friends, went to library at the college, borrowed books. I felt I have done the best I could. I felt I have appreciated and treasured the opportunity I have in this year. I felt I have done enough. So please God help me pass. I told myself I have to do my best for just once to pass all this. So there you go I have done my best. So please make me pass.

To be honest I can’t imagine myself here working till next January. But I don’t wanna be disappointed with my result, so I need to keep reminding myself that there is a possibility that I can fail. I’m in a dilemma! Big time! Feel so helpless. Omitofo omitofo…

There’s so many people I wanna thank already, but this should better be written after I got my result. Teehee. So imma pray on Tuesday and Wednesday, Thursday is my ‘last’ day at work. Amen.

Love yourself,
Eunice

Life’s tough

I have not been good to myself. I am good in taking care of myself on a routine basis, but when something wrong happens, I will be like ‘ No way man, this couldn’t be true’, basically I Ignored. Not thinking that problem may be an issue, thinking people should get a life. Well, clearly I am wrong now! My thinking is not mature, not developed and selfish. After all this time, things are forcing me to make a change.

1. I need to just do what I should do and DO IT RIGHT! – minimal mistake please as there are rooms for improvement, o/w you are just STUCK there.

2. Be comfortable with your own skin. I am not 16 anymore, we are now out in the real world dealing with different people. We MUST be CONFIDENT in ourself to be able to mix into a new environment. I am not. I don’t feel comfortable. I need to find a way to stay as positive and comfortable as I can to communicate with everyone.

3. Smile and forget, don’t hold on grudges as it just affects how you view things.  It affects your wellbeing, including increased depression, anxiety and stress. You will then realize how negative you are about things. Why let anyone who has wronged you have power over you? If you let go of all your grudges, you’ll gain a clear conscience and enough energy to enjoy the good things in life.

Here are some more things to share, about ‘How Happy People Do Differently to be Successful. Nobody say it is gonna be easy, but it is gonna be WORTH IT.

4. Treat everyone with kindness.

Did you know that it has been scientifically proven that being kind makes you happier? Every time you perform a selfless act, your brain produces serotonin, a hormone that eases tension and lifts your spirits. Not only that, but treating people with love, dignity, and respect also allows you to build stronger relationships.

5. See problems as challenges.

The word “problem” is never part of a happy person’s vocabulary. A problem is viewed as a drawback, a struggle, or an unstable situation while a challenge is viewed as something positive like an opportunity, a task, or a dare. Whenever you face an obstacle, try looking at it as a challenge.

6. Express gratitude for what they already have.

There’s a popular saying that goes something like this: “The happiest people don’t have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have.” You will have a deeper sense of contentment if you count your blessings instead of yearning for what you don’t have.

7. Dream big.

People who get into the habit of dreaming big are more likely to accomplish their goals than those who don’t. If you dare to dream big, your mind will put itself in a focused and positive state.

8. Don’t sweat the small stuff.

Happy people ask themselves, “Will this problem matter a year from now?” They understand that life’s too short to get worked up over trivial situations. Letting things roll off your back will definitely put you at ease to enjoy the more important things in life.

9. Speak well of others.

Being nice feels better than being mean. As fun as gossiping is, it usually leaves you feeling guilty and resentful. Saying nice things about other people encourages you to think positive, non-judgmental thoughts.

10. Never make excuses.

Benjamin Franklin once said, “He that is good for making excuses is seldom good for anything else.” Happy people don’t make excuses or blame others for their own failures in life. Instead, they own up to their mistakes and, by doing so, they proactively try to change for the better.

11. Get absorbed into the present.

Happy people don’t dwell on the past or worry about the future. They savor the present. They let themselves get immersed in whatever they’re doing at the moment. Stop and smell the roses.

12. Wake up at the same time every morning.

Have you noticed that a lot of successful people tend to be early risers? Waking up at the same time every morning stabilizes your circadian rhythm, increases productivity, and puts you in a calm and centered state.

13. Avoid social comparison.

Everyone works at his own pace, so why compare yourself to others? If you think you’re better than someone else, you gain an unhealthy sense of superiority. If you think someone else is better than you, you end up feeling bad about yourself. You’ll be happier if you focus on your own progress and praise others on theirs.

14. Choose friends wisely.

Misery loves company. That’s why it’s important to surround yourself with optimistic people who will encourage you to achieve your goals. The more positive energy you have around you, the better you will feel about yourself.

15. Never seek approval from others.

Happy people don’t care what others think of them. They follow their own hearts without letting naysayers discourage them. They understand that it’s impossible to please everyone. Listen to what people have to say, but never seek anyone’s approval but your own.

16. Take the time to listen.

Talk less; listen more. Listening keeps your mind open to others’ wisdoms and outlooks on the world. The more intensely you listen, the quieter your mind gets, and the more content you feel.

17. Nurture social relationships.

A lonely person is a miserable person. Happy people understand how important it is to have strong, healthy relationships. Always take the time to see and talk to your family, friends, or significant other.

18. Meditate.

Meditating silences your mind and helps you find inner peace. You don’t have to be a zen master to pull it off. Happy people know how to silence their minds anywhere and anytime they need to calm their nerves.

19. Eat well.

Junk food makes you sluggish, and it’s difficult to be happy when you’re in that kind of state. Everything you eat directly affects your body’s ability to produce hormones, which will dictate your moods, energy, and mental focus. Be sure to eat foods that will keep your mind and body in good shape.

20. Exercise.

Studies have shown that exercise raises happiness levels just as much as Zoloft does. Exercising also boosts your self-esteem and gives you a higher sense of self-accomplishment.

21. Live minimally.

Happy people rarely keep clutter around the house because they know that extra belongings weigh them down and make them feel overwhelmed and stressed out. Some studies have concluded that Europeans are a lot happier than Americans are, which is interesting because they live in smaller homes, drive simpler cars, and own fewer items.

22. Tell the truth.

Lying stresses you out, corrodes your self-esteem, and makes you unlikeable. The truth will set you free. Being honest improves your mental health and builds others’ trust in you. Always be truthful, and never apologize for it.

23. Establish personal control.

Happy people have the ability to choose their own destinies. They don’t let others tell them how they should live their lives. Being in complete control of one’s own life brings positive feelings and a great sense of self-worth.

23. Accept what cannot be changed.

Once you accept the fact that life is not fair, you’ll be more at peace with yourself. Instead of obsessing over how unfair life is, just focus on what you can control and change it for the better.

Here’s to end my blog today.

I made my favorite scones for my housemates during Easter Sunday. Whilst searching for some scones recipe, this is what I found.

Below is my end product. Life in Short, Eat Scones.

life is short and happy easter Scones never eat scones if you dont have clotted cream and raspberry jam

enjoy xx

Stop and Stare, make sure you are Marching up!

Image2nd week of March, also White Valentine’s day, who cares! Well, i have never celebrated stuff like this coz my partner is not romantic. I’m such a saddo sometimes. But anyway, I better March up. Had a really bad start this March. Let’s see how bad was it:

1. lost one off day in work due to my ‘lovely’ boss is not understanding enough. He’s so not logical and has no common sense! (will not mention in detail here coz it is a waste of time)

2. kind of got cornered by one of my director into a room with my supervisor and my other director.

3. complains, recheck and more complains from Px. – GET A LIFE MAN!

These all happened within one week. Well, who said life is gonna be perfect, who said this is gonna be easy. I am glad i have bunch of colleagues and friends there to comfort me. I am gonna live the fullest and learn the best out of this practise. Not leaving a trace of opportunity behind. We had Sauflon CLs team in yesterday in Practice. They taught us (10 Optoms) how to fit a Multifocal CLs. We have even completed MCQs which worth 2 CET points. After that, we went to Fish Factory in Worthing town centre for a fishy meal ; ) I had Grilled Skate with chips and parsley and white wine sauce, tried Spotted Dick Pudding! lol. will not ever try it again because it is basically christmas pudding that you have not on a christmas day!

I talked to one of my uni friend who he his visit 2 and he scored 25/30! That’s well good! This just help me March up a bit. I need to be more focus for my visit 3, which is coming up next 18th April. I have got a few Px records today. I am very proud of myself in Marching forward a bit. = ) Must not stop until i have my visit done.

There’s another I am on about is this superHOT victoria secret model—> MIRANDA KERR. She’s a bombshell! I am taking her as a role model. i stalk her everyday. She is so healthy and beautiful inside out. She practice good well-being through yoga, eating healthily (she has a degree in nutritionist), has a balanced life (work, baby, hubby, skincare, NYC, OZ) and believes in everyone deserves their best! We have what it takes to deserve out best. So nothing is impossible!

I am trying to practice not to judge ppl and focus on what i do at work (it’s very very hard because i love listen to gossips, hahaha), just smile and say nothing. This is what people know me as, haha because when i don’t get what they say, I either just smile, laugh say yes or no. LOL

I am trying to cut down bread and milk and have soy milk and….. potato as carb instead (more excuse to have crisps! ; ) ) Also, I have replaced cooking oil to coconut oil, also add Flaxseed into my food for extra fibre in it, choose organic food if there’s a choice, and also choose less processed food to eat.

I am also trying to do exercise everyday from walking 30 mins to stretching my legs, bumps and tums in my room, 35 mins korean aerobics or hit the gym with one of my housemate. One thing i lack most is TLC from my partner really. Can’t do much about it. I guess i will just need to pamper myself more = ).

Ok, it’s time to March on with my work and revision. Determination is the key ♡.

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♩♪♫♬…Oh when Eunice, go Marching in, oh when Eunice go Marching in, I wanna be at my bestest, oh when Eunice go Marching in…♫♪♬♩

有时候,this is how I feel… 你也是吗?

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我不喜歡說話卻每天說最多的話,我不喜歡笑卻總笑個不停,身邊的每個人都說我的生活好快樂,于是我也就認爲自己真的快樂。可是爲什麽我會在一大群朋友中突然地就沈默,爲什麽在人群中看到個相似的背影就難過,看見秋天樹木瘋狂地掉葉子我就忘記了說話,看見天色漸晚路上暖黃色的燈火就忘記了自己原來的方向。